Finals week start next week, and I know I'm supposed to be nervous and focused, but all I can feel is a lot of loneliness and some measure of feeling out of place. I feel so vastly different from the people around me but I didn't have this feeling some weeks before. I get so irritated so easily. Did something change when I didn't notice? Is there something wrong with me? Why is it that I always feel so negative about everything around me?

I find solace in the boy, but I know that it's not good to be utterly emotionally dependent on him. I need other people on my life too.