short term

Some years ago a friend told me she felt like crying when a new friend she made was switching classes, because she felt like he was a lost brother and knew that things would be different between them from then on. She asked me if I understood that feeling and I just nodded without much thought.
But I think I can understand that now.

Feeling utterly out of place, unwanted, forgotten and alone. How long will I be able to take this?

school, also known as, my lack of social skills

Maybe it's the way I keep looking towards school and meeting new people with a sense of dread or apprehension. Maybe it's just the way my face looks. Maybe I'm just not a good person to be friends with. Whatever it is, it's been pretty tough to settle into a new school and environment.

Quite ironic, because I'm in the faculty studying social sciences but I seem to be lacking in the "social" area, as in, being sociable (lol).

I have a good feeling about you, like we could be great friends. But it feels like it isn't mutual, and I never like it when the favours are not tipped towards me, so I will hold my attachment in, until I can let me trust you.

Watched The XX live before this. Felt like I missed the boy too much and really wanted him to enjoy them with me (even though he doesn't listen to them). The male vocalist has a voice I could marry, and Jamie XX just wowed me speechless.