it's really tiring trying to be happy

It's a lesson learnt today, but also an ironic one, because then the outward and the online happiness presented is manufactured. I'm not saying I'm never happy; I'm saying that maybe 70% of the time I appear happy, I'm not.

But I'm happy I have someone who's willing to kiss my face and listen to me whenever I need it. I don't like the idea of doing things just to placate people, but I wouldn't mind trying, as long I have him.

I don't think there can be anyone who can enjoy doing the things I like to do, from wandering in book stores and visiting museums, to going cycling and bouldering, sometimes two differing spectrums of activities on the same day. And I don't think I can enjoy doing these things with anyone else too.